Aphelion

And if it be my Alpha and Omega that everything heavy shall become light, every body a dancer, and every spirit a bird; and verily, that is my Alpha and Omega —

Tonight I was consumed with a thought. This thought has been burning in me for awhile now, although it has come to me in only parts. I shall attempt to coalesce all of it together.

Where shall I begin... I used to believe that free will could not exist. This of course leads to determinism. My basis for this was science. In all my learning, I have learned that there could be no such thing as "free will" or "free choice" because we were dictated by factors outside of our control. Essentially, if we were entities created from organs, these organs are created from cells, these cells from amino acids and proteins, amino acids and proteins from molecules, and finally molecules from atoms. Thus our entire will was merely determined by the play of atoms within our minds, the constant struggle towards equilibrium of different substances within our bodies, the electrical charge and discharge of axons and neurons in our brains. And thus, if we possessed infinite computational power, with infinite storage capacity with the ability to map the location of every single atomic arrangement in the universe, we could thereby perfectly predict the future.

However, this was found to be false. Because even given all those factors, we know it is impossible. Due the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle, we cannot predict the location of atoms without affecting their velocity. Therefore, electrons exist in probability clouds that surround the atom. This is how determinism is broken. By quantum mechanics.

If QM were to hold true, free will and free choice will all be possible due the that quantum structure of the universe. In all of science, it still comes down to probability. Because of this one idea, it breaks every facet of determinism filtering through the heavens.

Therefore God, or the Tao, or Allah, or any other spiritual body could scientifically exist. These then become the same entity, which I will call the "Probability Determiner." It is the only conduit through science in which these entities can exist. Therefore all gods are one and the same. They all exist within this probability.

The probability determiner leads to the basic, underlying concept of the universe, which is the wave pattern. Every aspect of the universe exhibits the wave pattern. This is a constant, oscillatory state which exists between two opposing forces. Clearly, this is seen in particle physics/quantum mechanics (photon packets, antimatter, spin opposition of quarks), electrodynamics (RMF voltages, induced current, electromagnetic waves), thermodynamics (entropy, heat flow to equilibrium, adiabatic/isobaric/isochoric/isothermal processes), and every other aspect of physics.

It is interesting to note that as humans, we also perceive in a world of opposites. We always measure some aspect of ourselves as opposed to an opposite. Be it an emotion, or a sex, or a political party. This is not surprising, since we must also exhibit wave-like patterns.

Then fate is also possible. Fate could be described as the over all wave pattern of a distinct set of factors leading to a choice. The choice, however, is in the hands of the entity, which is allowed to make free choice. For example, if a series of major events takes place, due to general changes in society and the world, leads to smaller events being "spun" out of these major events. These give way to you being in a particular space and time, in a particular emotional state in which you make a choice. Every event that led to that choice is determined by a larger series of events, and for every one of those events, and even larger series, until you reach general overall patterns exhibited on a macroscopic level. All these series of events could be called a "set" or "fate." Both free will and the cyclical nature of the universe are then intact.

In eastern culture, this pattern was known. Behold the wheel of life...





The eastern mystics were able to extrapolate their senses to view the overarching patterns of our world, and this is the resultant. The Tao is also a clear example...





The beauty and simplicity that lies within the Taiji symbol is evident. We see two opposing forces, the Yin and Yang, in a constant state of oscillation. At the maximum point of one, lies the seed for the other. And thus the cycle is maintained.




Another interesting note is that if these sets do indeed exist, it allows for certain level of reincarnation. What I mean by a certain level of reincarnation is that a repeating set could lead to an entity being created that has the same thought processes as a previously existing entity. Therefore the entity would be "reincarnated" to a certain degree, however he or she would not have the memories of the previous entity. This entire concept is relatively Nietzschian. It is known as Eternal Return. Does the wave nature of the universe give rise to this? It is a possibility.

Ok, so all gods or probability determiners can drive humans to free choice, but does this mean the rest of the universe is also determined by such things? Yes, indeed. In fact, there is an entire branch of mathematics dedicated to it. Chaos theory. Chaos theory provides the other major driving force behind the oscillatory patterns of the universe. Seemingly random systems of the universe in fact, given a large enough timeline, exhibit the same repeating patterns. These are governed by relatively-deterministic equations, which when graphed with a high step size as a phase diagram, reveal the attractor. A non-repeating, yet cyclical and ordered pattern...







I am finally done. I can actually sleep now knowing this shit is out of my head and written down. Yes, it's probably all BS, but this is what I keep this blog for, to write down convoluted ideas such as this.

PASS OUT TIME.

you keep writing, and i'll keep reading. and we'll both be better off for it.